Your Church

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Abba Father, help me with any severe deficiency of relationships with fellow believers.  i know it isn't Your plan and that You designed Your church to be a place when people's lives could be built together.  Help me to be wise and strong enough to lay down my life for a brother in Christ if that be Your will for me.  O, i'd lay down my life for You, in Your name, but i have a block when it comes to other people.  i don't care if they're sitting beside me in church when i decide after months and years to return.

Authentic, tender sincere, warm love:  i don't even feel that for anyone i once considered a friend, let alone any acquaintance.  The family i grew up with under one roof is virtually gone beyond the memories, even with a brother living and breathing in another state.  My parents are deceased.  i've heard my own mother refer to our family as dysfunctional.  And all along i knew You were watching and observing me in my situation.  You knew the number of every hair on my head.  i don't even consider myself very honorable or precious, so i know i won't feel that way toward others.

How many times Lord have you caught me envisioning myself smocking someone across the mouth?  Could i be so cold and callous thinking about the blood of Jesus?  Should i be concerned about not having that touch of Heaven in my life or begin to even focus on Heaven?  i am in no mood to rationalize, Abba Father, help me not to be so isolated from my brothers and sisters in Christ.  Right now i have no idea how i can resolve this issue.  It is my number one issue and i know You'll keep watching, so i'm going to pray and wait, pray and wait for i know You'll give me the wisdom to improve my situation.

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