Heart, Soul, and Strength

My parents had been so vivid in my life that they fail to disappear as far as i'm concerned.  i'm sure each one of them preferred i'd forget about them completely and perhaps i will when i'm in Heaven.  Yes, they were bad in their ways just as i am.  Perhaps the world i live in is a lot more fallen than when they were around taking good care of me.  At times, i'm sure they wondered how in the world could they have come up with me.  There was a long, long time in my life when the only exercise i was getting consistently was when i was exercising my free will.  How aware can i be that You knew all along just how i'd be! i want to drop everything so that my hands are no longer full, so i can reach my arms, hands , and fingers up to You.  As i am and as only You see me.  You know i don't for that crap in church.  Teach me that the way i worship You isn't wrong regardless of what others think and say.  i'm not trying to change the course of a...

 Now it is my responsibility to seek and fulfill my calling and i've got to look beyond these murky circumstances and this overabundance of worldly issues brought on by other people i'm stuck with. O, if i could i would unstick myself but i can only do that with Your help and guidance because i'm not capable to make any move without some degree of prejudice or predisposition or some fleshly motivation.  i need to be calm.  i know when i'm agitated and i hate being agitated because i know Satan loves it! Just when i'm about to find out what my calling is, i know who'll be waiting around a corner to push me off-course.  Heavenly Father, help me to keep my eyes on the stars and my feet on the ground.  You know what's in my heart.  i have no intention to just sit around waiting for my chariot to come for me.  i know that You will not abandon Your creation and that You will restore it.  i've heard Your promise and i fully believe You.  i know i'm ...

  i am so grateful i've turned into someone who doesn't care about the best clothes or the latest fashions.  i don't have to compete against anybody regarding the lifestyle i have.  i have no need to compare myself to the next classmate at the next high school reunion. The 50th is coming this year and i don't even feel the need to be there.  i know what's going to happen even though i won't be there to prove it. i will never be defined by what any of them write or say about me.  Sometimes i wonder whether or not i'm defined by what i say or write about me.  Right here in this crab bucket they'll have to pick somebody else to drag down with them to the bottom.  Enough of these cookie-cutter crackpots causing noise and air pollution.  Always the problem never the solution.  But only with my Lord around could even this be sublime!  i could never love silence and solitude too much!  i may not be strongest when most alone, yet i could ne...

 May our souls be in harmony our thoughts be as one and may our ears listen to the silence together, Abba Father.  Today in particular i have noticed such glorious silence surrounding me.  People have got their mouths shut this morning.  i know it won't last much longer.  May our glances profoundly penetrate one another.  May our lips pray together so that we may gain mercy from You.  In Jesus's name.  Amen  It's good to spend time in quietness.  Right now the only sound i hear is the rain running through the gutter outside. This has become one of my favorite sounds.  Perhaps it's because i've grown older--not necessarily wiser--and i've grown to love the birds chirping their thanks for the birdseed and peanut i've laid out for them. There aren't many people around me lately who i know who cold actually strengthen my soul, and that's okay.  You, Holy Spirit, do that for me.  i know You're here because i notice the precious...

 Abba Father, help me to convey that the only way to have joy is to repent and become more righteous than i've ever been.  i know You don't expect perfection.  Jesus was the only perfect person to ever walk this earth.  A God among us and a Spirit within us.  Thank You for letting me know Your Holy Spirit is communicating with me whenever You allow it.  Help me convey that a happy life here on this earth  is only an illusion and Satan dances in the street when he sees how delusional we all can be.  The joy of being righteous can only be appreciated and realized while in Heaven. Twenty years ago i wouldn't even have wasted my time considering that.  The only wisdom i've got is the  wisdom You've allowed me to have.  Happiness is the delusion.  It is joy i should always focus on.  Joy that can only come from repentance and believing in the marvelous gift You gave me on the Cross.  Because of Your Holy Spirit i'm calmer ...

If i can stop smoking and looking into porn--that was a tough one and Satan still keeps me thinking about it--then i can get others to follow Jesus because Jesus is the key.  If i can be saved, help me save others in Jesus' name.  Amen  Abba Father, keep me humble, make me always aware that even my good deeds are worthless.  It doesn't matter.  The blood of Jesus is my only way into heaven.  Keep me on the narrow path and bless me with blessing others by getting on the narrow path as well.  Bless and preserve and protect the likes of John MacArthur and Jonathan Kahn who seem to my human, mortal mind to be the ones to pay attention to.  i pray for the gay--that they will repent as i have--and i'm still working on it--repentance is a process.  Only by Your grace was i able to begin to change, Dear Lord.  Help me to clarify and strengthen my testimony, focusing on Your doing and may others not confuse me for some "special" person who has so...

 Abba Father, always make me full of wisdom or at least aware of it--when it comes to engaging in what are considered acceptable forms of worship in Your eyes.  May i always offer to You according to faith.  i am aware of Cain's offering; and not only may it not have been in faith, but it wasn't his first offering but perhaps an afterthought offering.  Maybe it's the "in" thing now, but i never want to get beyond Kumbaya.   Help me not to put any value on these worldly circumstances and people who tend toward ungodliness.  Who have no concept of respecting others.  Make me aware of the weightiness of You whom i belong and am worshipping.  As unworthy as i am, guide me when i attempt to follow Jesus and to live as He lived.  Could i ever love unconditionally--even my enemies--as He did?  Lead me to the passages in the Bible that enlighten me enough to love even my enemies.   Keep reminding me that it's all supernatural caus...

 My days of survival have ended.  i'm on a mission now and i don't care what anybody has to say about it.  i don't care what value the world puts on that or the disvalue it puts on it while standing around the water cooler.  i'm willing to lose my life in order to fulfill my calling, even if it's only three years of activity.  i am beyond the world now because the world doesn't really satisfy me.  A cup of coffee while reading  Jeremiah this morning--now that fulfills me. But even all of this is not enough.  What i have to offer compares to smelly, filthy rags.  Nothing but the blood of Jesus--according to His mercy--is the only thing that validates anything i could ever do. i'm beginning to really grasp the meaning of truly dying.  i remember in high school, some smart ass friend of mine while i was quietly reading in the library told the others around me to have respect for the dead.  Now i'm not even concerned about respect....

 Positionally, i am a righteous man and a living saint.  One who has a relationship with Jesus Christ consummated by the Hoy Spirit dwelling inside, always being conscious and aware now that i am a child of God.  Thus i've got to begin praying for others as especially those who are yet unconverted over in Israel.  Yet, i'm hearing that more and more are turning to Christ; perhaps this is the good design of our Heavenly Father.  May we all take His blessings by faith. Abba Father, may we all spend time with You every morning by looking up and getting into Your Word, so that we declare Your lovingkindness.  i believe You've set up Your nurseries for all these innocent children taken early , beheaded not realizing what terror they were experiencing.  May we all realize that You see things differently than we ever will.  It is good to give thanks to the Lord, And to sing praises to Your name, O Most High, To declare Your lovingkindness in the morning,...

i've always wondered why Satan is going to be released after the millennium.  To give him another chance?  To set him up for the kill?  A sporting chance? Like fishermen who cast nets off the shore with an opening between the shoreline and the end of the net.  That's giving the fish a sporting chance.  It doesn't matter;  Come Lord Jesus!  Amen    He who testifies to these things say, "Surely I am coming quickly.  -[Revelation 22:20]  Amen.  Even so, come Lord Jesus!  May i no longer be passive--an observer who thins he's gotten free admittance because somebody else paid for my ticket.  i am up off my butt, not sitting around waiting for things to happen that may or may not happen anyway. What i do know is that Jesus Christ, the One who paid for my ticket, is coming back.  Come quickly, Lord!  And right now i am serving His Kingdom by writing to you, telling you this so that you can start to realize and reco...

And the embracing of the world will continue.  i remember those years.  Many of them right here where i've been living for the past 17 years.  When i was outside of Christ.  i didn't even call my Abba Father God--far too long, i referred to Him as my Creative Source.  Man i thought i was soooo cooool!    But now I have written to you not to keep company with anyone named a brother, who is sexually immoral, or covetous, or an idolater, or a reviler, or a drunkard, or an extortioner--not even to  eat with such a person.  -[1 Corinthians 5:10]  i mean, how many of these things could describe me at one time?  There's no need to be self-righteous anymore, for any righteousness i have comes from YAH. Christ is coming to judge His enemies and to set up His Kingdom.  He is coming and He shall rule over earth for 1000 years so we might as well start living as though He's been here ruling now and forever.  Amen  Imagine what a ...

Many will pass through that wide, wide gate--a gate as wide as some mouths try to emulate.  They want to emulate the wide, wide gate and use their mouths as tools.  May many of those who look for that narrow way pick up the whole armor of God--the Written Word. Through all the wickedness--like Israel--we will be left standing.  Stand therefore having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness. - [Ephesians 6:14] Our conduct is the most effective sermon we'll ever preach! We can no longer be wicked as the people of Sodom and Gomorrah once were!  i know i used to dwell --all in-- in that wickedness and i'm sure i left footprints in the great sandbox that the winds may once again reveal.  Yet i don't care because i know the Lord is watching over me and standing by me.  He knows where i've been and now where i'll be going.  In Jesus' name. Amen Abba Father, there is an abundance of idle people surrounding me and i hear str...

  ...Scoffers will come in the last days; walking according to their own lusts, and saying, "Where is the promise of His coming?  For since the fathers fell asleep, all things continue as they were from the beginning of creation.  -{2 Peter 3: 3-4]  What a frightening thing to know that apostates are building churches now.  With what?  Clay?  Straw and mud?  Are they building sandcastles everywhere that will be wiped away, even in the gentlest of winds?   The woman was arrayed in purple and scarlet, and adorned with gold and precious stones and pearls, having in her hand a golden cup full of abominations and the filthiness of her fornication. . .Here is the mind which has wisdom, The seven heads are seven mountains on which the woman sits. -[Revelation 17: 4,9] 'Then you shall know that I am the Lord, when I bring you into the land of Israel; into the country for which I raised My hand in an oath to give to your fathers.  And there ...

Thank You, Abba Father, for changing our appetites so that we become the apples of Your eye as we watch the serpents and scorpions and jackals and wolves slither away out of Your garden.  Now the Lord had said to Abram, "Get out of your country, From your family And from your father's house, To a land that I will show you, I will make you a great nation, I will bless you And make Your name great; And you shall be a blessing.  I will bless those who bless you, And i will curse him who curses you. And in you all the families of the earth shall be blessed."  -[Genesis 12: 1-3] May we all become the Abrams of our time for such a time as this.  When there will be those demoniacs who constantly sling and hit our minds, those of us who are seeking YAH and His righteousness.  For they shall hate us for it!  Their roads and wide paths lead to our minds, and we must--with YAH's help and with the Holy Spirit's dwelling inside--make narrower and narrower those roads an...

Give me wisdom. Lord, that i may touch but one life today and that he will be blessed with more knowledge about Your Kingdom so that at least both of us can be the servants You desire to serve You and Your Kingdom.  May we all realize that Your desires--and none of ours--is the most important desires for we know You intend what is good in this beautifully designed world of Yours.  May no more of this apostate world depart from the Word, and may we receive wisdom whenever we delve into Your Good Book. Make us aware when someone who is followed by others strays from Your intentions and meanings of the written Word which You have inspired.  In Jesus' name.  Amen Make our faith ever stronger and may we all realize the importance of that faith in this ever darkening world.  May we all stand clear of them who wants to corrupt Your Word in order to fulfill their own lusts and desires when after all it is You who deserves the honor of lusting and desiring after Your chi...

  Abba Father, help me with any severe deficiency of relationships with fellow believers.  i know it isn't Your plan and that You designed Your church to be a place when people's lives could be built together.  Help me to be wise and strong enough to lay down my life for a brother in Christ if that be Your will for me.  O, i'd lay down my life for You, in Your name, but i have a block when it comes to other people.  i don't care if they're sitting beside me in church when i decide after months and years to return. Authentic, tender sincere, warm love:  i don't even feel that for anyone i once considered a friend, let alone any acquaintance.  The family i grew up with under one roof is virtually gone beyond the memories, even with a brother living and breathing in another state.  My parents are deceased.  i've heard my own mother refer to our family as dysfunctional.   And all along i knew You were watching and observing me in my situatio...