Nicest Thing My Mother Ever Said To Me

 Mother was my last significant audience.  In fact, she told me whenever she heard Shirley Bassey sing "I'll Be Your Audience," that she thought about me!  Nicest thing she ever said to me, i think.  That was so long ago, yet unforgettable.  Within the past decade there moments when she had the opportunity to be my audience she wasn't as effective due to failing health or she just didn't want to be bothered or she was becoming much too self-absorbed.  i hope that doesn't happen to me. 

i even learned not to bother to tell her about anything that was eventful in my life because i knew she wouldn't respond with the enthusiasm i expected.  i was beginning to wonder about her statement about thinking of me when she heard Shirley Bassey singing "I'll Be Your Audience."  Of course, during the past decade she hadn't been listening.  

When your only friend just can't be found And you've got no one to hang around, just call on me Baby I'll be your audience.  When you're feeling low and coming down And you've got no one to hang around Call on me Baby, I'll be your audience...i may have felt let down over the years, but now that Christ has gotten my attention again, it's really a moot point now.  It's covered.  When i wrote a play that was produced in New York and told her about it, she responded emptily and said, "Oh yeah?" and then proceeded to go into detail about all the medications she was on.  When that happened i think my shrug of the shoulders may have even been bigger than hers.  The hurt feelings that i might've had twenty years ago didn't show up at all!