One Must Be BORN AGAIN

 i can't say, " i have sinned against You, Lord," and then turn right around and keep doing the same thing over and over again.  Not if i'm a true follower of the Lord, and there must come a time when those who purport to be followers realize this.  It's not about a lot of lip service or choosing the right words to say at the right time to impress others.  i know someone like that and i fantasize about striking her across her mouth or taking her out back and flogging her.  Lord, forgive me.  i'll leave that kind of thing to You.  Catholics tend to think they're the "champagne" of Christians and that we Protestants are the Paul Masson.  And i drink no wine anytime.  The name of a Christian is not the nature of a Christian.  One must be BORN AGAIN as a subject of Jesus Christ.

To what or to whom do i put all my hopes and dreams for the future i have left?  i don't have ministry in me.  The physical act of standing behind a pulpit, like the great Rick Renner, is not in me.  i thought that would be a cool job one day back when i was in high school.  i was once in a chaotic state and God was determined that i wouldn't stay in that state.  Thank You, Abba Father.  Therefore, i do not lose heart, but though my outer man is decaying, my inner man is being renewed day by day. -[2 Corinthians 4:16]  Until i become willing to take responsibility for my wrong decisions i would've been unwilling and unable to do anything to fix the situations my bad decisions put me in.

It seems hard to imagine that God is working toward reestablishing a perfect creation in me again.  At least He's showing me that i can't continue to abuse the gift of choice.  i didn't come up with all this on my own.  i thank the Holy Spirt for His partnership.  i must've passed the audition.  i qualified myself for that partnership with the Holy Spirit.  The wolves are gnawing at my door and howling but i'm safe because the Holy Spirit stands on the other side of the door.  i am in shelter with Christ and  the door is shut.  Somehow, together, we must help others whose doors the demons can easily knock down or penetrate.