Founded On The Rock

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 YAH, place Your hand on the small of my back and guide me into seeking You with all my heart.  "And the rain fell and the floods came, and the winds blew and slammed against that house; and yet it did not fall for it had been founded on the rock. -[Mark 7:25]  i'm not a failure and i'm wired differently now.  i rarely want to listen to what the majority of people say these days.  i'm beginning to develop the knack of listening to what people are NOT saying.  Back in high school a classmate would say, "What's wrong with you!" because i'd laugh and laugh when it was my turn to read a paragraph or two during Reading class.  Remember, class of '74, that Newell again laughing at nothing during reading class.  He isn't normal, is he.  He's flipped his lid.  i don't recall allowing the devil to make me feel that there was a personal attack.  In fact, other than Flip Wilson's the devil made me do that i didn't really think about Satan that much.

I am a reproach among all my enemies, but especially among my neighbors, And am repulsive to my acquaintances; Those who see me outside flee from me. --[Psalm 31:11] Negative life experience to reinforce college sabotaged me early and aborted my calling to be an episcopal minister.  That was probably a blessing.  God knew i didn't have any idea what i was getting into and i certainly didn't realize what the Episcopal church would turn into.  YAH, give me the knowledge and the wisdom to see things from Your point-of-view.   

i spent so long saying what comes out of my flesh.  It's a bad habit and it's hard to break.  i catch myself saying and thinking things i shouldn't all the time.  i wonder if i'll ever obtain wisdom.  Knowledge is one thing.  Wisdom something else altogether.  He was oppressed and He was afflicted; Yet He opened not His mouth; He was led as a lamb to the slaughter, And as a sheep before its shearers is silent, so He opened not His mouth. - [Isaiah 53:7]  i don't quite know whether or not You are calling me to the ministry, yet i will do my best to minister.  In Jesus' name.  Amen

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