Wrestling Not Against Flesh and Blood

 i could fill in the blanks about seeing the advantages of going to Charis eventually.  Being in the company of fellow Christians in one spot coming from all parts of the world.  Sounds good, but does God want me to make such a move?  Does He see me doing a sufficient job learning the Bible by myself.  Was there only this romantic vision about being out in Colorado with the scenery and the mountains?  Or is it only a potential wilderness where i'll get lost and marginalized?  Just the job application process itself for finding jobs there is a pain.  They asked me if i had transportation to get to a job.  i established early that i did not and that was why i wanted to be close to campus or on-campus.  Plus it's not an accredited Bible college.  i was warned about that.

For i wrestle not against flesh and blood.  YAH, look no further.  i want Your best.  i don't want second best.  i don't want to just cope and survive, Lord, i want to thrive!  The fool has said in his heart, "There is no God."  They are corrupt.  They have done abominable works.  There is none who does good. - [Psalm 14:1] 

If i'm at fault, then i can do something about it.  i can change.  Seems this point in my life, Abba Father, i have so much need to change.  People desperately seeking prayer aren't doing what the Bible says.  They aren't working.  They're depressed, discouraged, and bitter.  They're angry and full of unforgiveness.  They're violating every spiritual law and living in crisis all the time because they're not cooperating with what God tells them to do.  They're wrestling no against flesh and blood.