How Hated I've Been Feeling These Past Few Years

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 i do believe in guardian angels.  He has sent them already, especially lately.  They have been persons who seem to be in places i've been who have no business being there.  Or it's the security guard at the library who always seems to be coming out the front door while the wolves outside the library entrance have staring and glaring eyes, ready to pounce as they lie in wait for my arrival.  It's a feeling of calm that comes over me even when trouble's brewing.  He's given me a keener sense of awareness.  i'm just not riding the surf anymore.  And He has quite the sense of humor as i'm going about having a keener sense of awareness while i'm opening up the wrong side of the shaker and an avalanche of sea salt pours into the pot!  


He sent out His arrows and scattered the foe, lightning in abundance, and He vanquished them. -[Psalm 18:14]

i can't begin to tell you how hated i've been feeling these past few years, even by my own biological brother, even after telling him about being saved and wondering whether our parents are in heaven or not.  i told him that God loves us more than we could ever love one another.  i did better than tell him--i wrote it in black and white in a letter that accompanied a $500 check i owed him for nearly a decade.

i have thoughts of being stabbed on my way to the bus depot or shot there.  There's so much ungodly, evil, and needless violence going on.  The news is always bad and yet the politicians obsess over gun laws.  There's no protection for the innocent ones who love going to school.  i remember and thank the Lord for the days i looked forward to going to school.  September was like New Year to me and was my favorite time of year because it marked the beginning of a new school year.

Thank You, my Heavenly ever-present Advocate for looking out for me in these risky times.  Keep me on the narrow path and help me lead others onto that path.  In Jesus' name.  Amen

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