His Gentle, Quiet, Child-Like Man

 i want a calm and gentle spirit.  Not just give lip service about being a Christian.  Knowing that i am a genuine servant of God which only God has to know.  i do give in many times to the moods of the

moment.  i want to be His man.  His gentle, quiet, child-like man. i am in Your keeping and in Your training according to Your training.  What lifeless areas do i still have that need to be brought back to life?

Please help me control my anger, violence, lust, greed, discontentment, selfishness.  My ugliness of pride.  At times i feel i'm entitled to stir up trouble.  My mouth the cause of noise pollution.  The cause of air pollution.  i know i can take part in a showdown between idolatry and You, the Living God.

i want to be sure that i'm in the will of God so i can be invincible as He sees fit.  So i will be able to stand fast under the will of God while unemployed.  What i believe should be based on what God has said.  When there are a thousand against me.  They are against me plus God.  Not on the defensive but on the offensive, knowing where i stand.  Now that's invincible.