Having A Lighter Load to Carry

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 I forgive the smokers at the Gaslight Motel by burning incense to cover the stink of cigarettes and weed...two vices in which i had engaged myself when i was in bondage.  i am trying to learn to forgive and i'm trying to practice forgiveness more.  i'm beginning to see why God placed me here.  It's not to change the creepy way things seem to go here.  It's so that i learn to wait on the Lord, to not jump from dwelling to dwelling, apartment to apartment.  It's to learn to settle down.  i was almost heading to a place that i had no idea how the hell i was even getting to, let alone get my things there.  Let alone deciding what to bring and what to leave behind or toss.  i've done this messy stuff before and the only good that can come of it is having a lighter load to carry.


Oh i have forgiven the creeps and i've already looked in my own mirror and have forgiven myself.  The poison of malice must be eliminated and that's by forgiving others, just as God has forgiven me because He shed His blood i can experience God's gracious forgiveness.  i need to get the doctrine in my heart and not so much in my head.  The closer i get to the light, the dirtier my heart and hands become. 

Let me yield to You, O Lord, so that i may forgive others.  Help me to remember to let Your Word is not to be neglected for that will rob me of my joy.  Put Your protective hand on me and help me to be still!  That i stop playing God and keep my hands of the situation.  Let me always be aware that the best is yet to come!  That my inheritance from Jesus is incorruptible and undefiled and shall not fade away. ---[1 Peter 1:4] Knowing that here at the Gaslight Motel i shall always meet deceit, yet in Your spirit there can be no deceit.  May Your hand always weigh heavy upon me and not the weight of this world.  In Jesus' name.  

Amen

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