The Condition of My Heart

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 Father, give me the courage to reexamine what i believe to be true about the Trinity.  Help me to disregard my human character and the human nature of others.  Help me to focus on the spiritual realm and the spiritual nature of others.  For now, i am uncomfortable in a congregation that's praising You with deep fervency of spirit and great job of expression.  I sense an unreal quality to this corporate praise.  To me, they're putting on an act.  Please forgive me.  I'm not buying into it.

When i praise You a great deal, when praise becomes the most extensive aspect of my private prayer life, from me naturally praise flows and i won't be intimidated.  When i uplift my hand, i want to sincerely declare that i love You, i rely on You, i exalt You, i salute Your greatness.  But that's man's definition of these things.  You know what's in my heart.

It's merely a symbolic display of submission of my will and my ways to the will and ways of God.  He knows what's in my heart.  i don't need to play-act, pretend, put on a show in church.  i am not going to clap and shout to put on the performance of praise.  These are the issues i have about going to church.  Forgive me, Lord.  for my praise to be authentic i need to seek a posture that fits the condition of my heart.

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