I Rebelled and I Returned

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 Immanuel,

You are with me.  You became a person and took on flesh.  You became a Savior and took on my sin.  I accept Your gift.  I receive You as my Lord, Savior, and Friend.  Because of You, i'll never be lonely again.

I need to get away to think. To ponder.  To rechart my course.  A day set apart for solitude and silence, not-doing.  Being-there.

I rebelled and I returned.  I have begun to love myself more with God's help and I still need His help to love my neighbors.  If i had had a son, i would've wanted Mark McCane [Johnny Crawford's role on The Rifleman].  I wouldn't have seen him as a blank slate awaiting my pen but as a written book awaiting my study.

Don't characterize me as being a loner because i'm living out my story.  I'm building on it, not maintaining it.  I'm through with maintenance.  The cure for the common life involves living the overlooked.  Lord, help me to marry my gifts with Your will.

In Jesus' name.  Amen   

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