God Wants My List

 Making a list of all the people I want to bite; friends aren't always friendly.  Neighbors aren't ever neighborly.  Coworkers never work, some bosses are always bossy.  Promises made are not always promises kept.  I tend to fight and want to bite back.  To keep lists and snarl lips and growl at people i don't like. God wants me to leave my list at the foot of the cross.  "Just look what I did for you," He reminds me, pointing at the cross.

If I am still doing acts of holiness to get God to move in my life, then i am still operating under a "law mentality" that is not faith.  Like Dean Martin, when I've gone to church lately, watching others lifting their arms in fake holiness--at least it would be fake for me--i tend to say, "What's everybody doing in my room?"

God, I want your best.  Don't look any further.  I don't want to be second best either.  I don't want to just cope and survive.  Lord, I want to thrive!  I know I'm at fault and I can do something about it.  I can change or rearrange my thinking.  My perceptions.  I can look beyond my present circumstances and look forward to being an overcomer.  I could be depressed, discouraged, and bitter.  I could be angry, filled with unforgiveness.  I could be living under crisis all the time because I'm choosing to disobey God.  I need to live by the blessings of God rather than hoping to live miracle by miracle.