Heart, Soul, and Strength

 God has made me forget all my toil and all my father's house, and He has caused me to be fruitful in the land of my afflictions.  My worst decisions were fueled by strong emotional appeals.  rubber-necking prairie dogs shout "Room 14's getting his ice now at the ice machine" rubber-necking prairie dogs make me wish i could fart on cue The attacks only let me get on with my plans.  i know because i've talked to God about it.  i tell Him all the time.  i'm surprised i don't bore Him to death.  But He alone can change my heart.  "My Lord and my God!" shouted Thomas.  The theory of evolution is the new kid on the block with only a century of acceptance under its belt.   i could never find fault in the Word of God.  It can only find fault in me.   Around the corner I have a friend.  In this great city that has no end; Yet days go by, and weeks rush on, And before I know it, a year is gone.  And I never...

 If the Bible is lying to me about hell then why would i think it's telling me the truth about heaven?  Same with folks who deny the existence of the devil...that just floors me!  Current events become aa story--one decision at a time.  Corrupt events become a scandal, one lie at a time.  Jesus is the only way to heaven.  Universalists say He isn't.  Universalists don't even regard heaven because they take for granted that God will let them in anyway into a place they don't even regard.  That's scandal, one lie after another.  That's only one of the illusions i've been compelled to avoid in my early morning awakening the other day. Repentance involves an overhaul of my own integrity, being honest with myself, if i can't do that then how can i be sincere with God?  For so long i focused on the immediate and not the ultimate.  What's going to please me right now!  That got me in trouble and got me into all kind of sin.  i re...

 i remember the increased volume of the sound of the hood strings when mother tied them for me.  i remember the walks home from Howe School in Mt. Lebanon, PA.  Those were innocent times for me.  i long to go back.  Maybe heaven will be something like that--the feeling of no longing.  i'll just be back.  i remember not even suspecting that the walls in my bedroom were so thin that my parents could hear every sound i made behind closed doors.  That was an innocent time for me.  i long to go back.  Maybe heaven will be something like that--the feeling of no longing.  i'll just be back. Now the bank will know my ESG rating and know my purchase style, my belief systems.  The time of innocence is long over.  Satan's dancing in the streets because many Christians themselves will be watering down the message of the Truth.  We won't know who we know who is ready to cancel us in this cancel culture. We have to be aware of the ...

 When one denies the existence of the devil claiming he's only in our mind, then he's going to be dancing with joy in the leaves.  i need to turn around and remember my past.  That's a great method to measure what God has done for me.  Making the past vivid makes it easier to present my testimony.  i keep rededicating myself.  i will never disregard the past where i've already walked through.  i suffer according to the power of God and that enables me to be strong in the middle of the fire.  i am free in my own conscience because Christ fulfilled His mission. The devil wants my head on a stake!  Yet my days of being worn down are fewer and fewer.  Jesus Christ descended into hell as a triumphant King to proclaim His victory over sin, death, and the devil to the saints who had died before Him. He breaks down the door of hell and unbinds the prisoner and leads the just to heaven.  He wants a personal relationship with me, and He wants...

 Two natures beat within my breast the one is foul the one is blessed the one i love the one i hate the one i feed will dominate! Some golden carved idol could never save me out of my troubles.  Remember the former things of old, For I am God and there is no other. I am God and there is none like Me. Declaring the end from the beginning, And from ancient times things that are not yet done Saying my counsel shall stand And I will do all My pleasure.  -[Isaiah 46: 9-10] YAH, stir up my pure mind, by way of reminder. My labor is to rest.  When i stand still i see the glory of the Lord.  Grace flows in the worry-free areas of my life. i go into the realm of peace and stay well.  When i let go, God will take hold.  i have no further need to be hurried or worried.  i will never remove purpose for that will lead to destruction.  God's path is not a straight highway, it is a wilderness path.  If i'm not humble, then i will fall.  He wi...

 i've engaged in mock adversarial exchanges.  i've even initiated them  i sound like i'm kidding, but am i really?  Everyone wants to know and some have even accused me , "Oh he sounds like he's kidding, but he really isn't.  i've encountered that twice in my life.  No big deal...it is what it is.  Most of the time people don't want to take the time to explore any of the nuances.  Me?  i was sent here on this earth to be able to do that.  When somebody hits one of my nerves, i'm going to retaliate!  These past several years with most people i've encountered it's all about hitting their nerves after someone's done hitting my nerves.  Words are too powerful to be used carelessly. Grace is the supernatural way to exist.  Resentment is like a cancer that takes charge.  It can be a killer.  The man across the hall today was found dead after several days.  i only talked to him once this past year and by the way we...

 i'll never be tested beyond my endurance because i can rely on Your endurance, Abba.  The Holy Spirit is with me now.  i need the tests of adversity in order to demonstrate my love for You.  If my endurance and faith must be measured, so be it.  If the Son of God could experience every temptation known to man, then who's to say i won't experience temptations?  When i look in the mirror and begin to admire what i see, that's the times somebody will pull my rug from under me.  If i drift into arrogance, not even You, Lord, can get through to me.  I've had delusions of spiritual grandeur.   Expression of my anger only solidifies my anger and that can become a harmful habit.  Jesus was not angry at injustices done to Him, not even when the crowd back Him up to the edge of a cliff.  It was righteous anger against injustice to His Father and to other people.  His anger is sanctified.  Righteous anger is never about the sel...

 i must do good to those who hate me even though there is no pain more bitter than from my enemies.  i must pray for those who are bent on persecuting me, who seek my weaknesses and who have hearts that are lying in wait, like a fox.  i plead to You, YAH, that they may not hurt or overcome me.  Of course, i should know better because Jesus Christ fulfilled that request on the Cross.  Bless and forgive those who purport to be Christians who are right about what they say and believe and wrong in what they're doing and not doing.  This makes me peculiar and extraordinary. His Power.  His Voice.  His Wisdom.  His Discretion.  The vapors ascend from the ends of the earth.  -[Jeremiah 10: 12-13]  There is no hope in fighting in this culture war.  Hearing the Word is the only hope i've got.  Faith and focus on things above.  The blame for any thorn in my flesh could never be God's fault.  i'm in good company--Job, ...

 Jesus will never put His signature on any of my bad decisions.  i've never had to wait for Him.  He is waiting for me.  It's always been that way.   And He said to me, "It is done!  I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End.  I will give of the fountain of the water of life freely to him who thirsts."  --[Revelation 21:6] YAH , help me and help me help others to become Your sons and daughters.  Our inheritance and our adoptions are forthcoming!  And there is much joy in being one of the elects in God's family.  And God says to Israel's enemies, "I'm going to kill you Myself."  Jews are now openly praying on the Temple Mount in full view of the police and the Muslims.  The final goal is to rebuild the Temple.  It is one more step to fulfilling Bible prophecy.  The Temple Mount is ground zero for the fulfillment of Bible prophecy and will be the theater for the Battle of Armageddon, where J...

 To me, winning means repenting.  i may fall back and slip on the slippery slope, but for the rest of my life, i intend to stay in the game.  The end of the end times is happening right now.  The Bible is more up to date than tomorrow's newspaper.  After taking God out of the schools, the void has to be filled up again and there will be a return to Baal.  By showing His willingness to give salvation and victory to the Israelites, who are smaller and weaker than their foes, God gives us reason to believe He will do the same for anyone else.  The Bible--this 100 percent Jewish book--has given us the light by which we can live our lives and know God's intention for us even after we leave this world. Now i know i must be aware of other Christians who are not as evolved as i might be.  There is a resentment, a jealousy that other Christians will have toward other Christians.  Jesus warned us all about it.  But He really stressed on the point ...

 Happy are they who, knowing that grace, can live in the world without being of it, by following Jesus Christ, are so assured of their heavenly citizenship that they are truly free to live their lives in this world...living my life which springs from grace.  i believe all of us have a vision of heaven in our hearts. So we know what we are saying when we say we are casting out Satan with Satan, focusing on blessings and healings, dwelling on answers and not the problems.  Allowing Satan to tie the rope around his own neck.  God is helping me do this every day now.  My concupiscence is beginning to dwindle.  Satan, take a hike elsewhere.  Only the grace of God can cause people to overcome sin.  i know i couldn't do it on my own. i see a lot of swords and daggers drawn against Andy Stanley and when i see something like that toward me or any one individual, then i believe that individual is doing something right.  Using religion or employing "lip...

 Do i give too much authority over this person?  did i trust someone who i really didn't know well?  did i spend enough time with that person to really become his friend?  My heart thinks.  My heart can think about things, just like my mind can.  i want to get to the point where i trust my heart more than my mind, if that's possible.  My adversary is always about.  Always stalking and ready to pounce and devour me.  i see the enemy in the people running the Motormouth Motel.  People spying on me... actually i am becoming more bemused than anything else.  Holy Spirit, You and i must be doing something right. Since i'm becoming more aware of thinking with my heart, i know You are filling me with joy.  You intercede for me.   You are the monitor and receptor for Yah's kind of love coming into my heart. You are responsible for me seeing the spiritual realm, and if i couldn't then there would be be no hope.  i wouldn'...

 Abba, thank You for blessing me and for calling me Your own.   You comfort me and You assure me that the Cross was enough.  i no longer fear the danger brought on by wickedness.   He was oppressed and He was afflicted, Yet He opened not His mouth; He was led as a lamb to slaughter, And as a sheep before its shearers is silent, so He opened not His mouth. -- [Isaiah 53:7]  i tend to bitch and argue and complain--whether it's a self-monologue or whether i'm actually talking to a real person--i tend to shut myself off from people because it's too much a chore--an unpleasant one at that--to listen to their yappity-yaps.  i'm hanging on for dear life, but i'm hanging on to You.  You and i are worth at least one gathering of their gossip. In Genesis 32:26, Jacob said "I will not let You go until You bless me.  Yet i know now that the Cross is enough.  i will hang on to You and cling to You as You hung to the cross, in Your name, Jes...

 Being self-focused is only to my disadvantage.  i remember when i played goalie and got scored on, how i obsessed over hypothetical scenarios.  i need to do better when it comes to humbling myself under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt me in due time. - [1Peter 5:6] It's not about the commutes by foot nor the rude patrons and the no-class-low-class "neighbors" and the lousy air conditioner at the library that makes me feel like i'm working in a refrigerator; i find that when i turn my thoughts to God i get a sense of peace and serenity.  At this point in my life, nothing else could ever offer me that same feeling for which i've been longing.  Cultivating stillness in truth...i'd say i've been in transition now for nearly a year...13SEP22 i'd say would be a good starting point.  Clarity and purpose come from God, not me.  i want to listen to You, Abba.  i want to seek after righteousness.  i seek You, Lord.   Look to the ro...

 May we all begin to let You be You and let You identify with our thoughts and dreams so that we can blend our hearts and minds into the conformity of Your will.  While obeying You, may we put a curb to our own impulses.  Keep me walking elsewhere where the demoniacs aren't lurking and tempting me to return to my past iniquity.  Help me to keep my eye on You and my mind off of lustful, worldly thoughts. Take away from my heart anything that is self-seeking and envious; help me to prevent the devil and his demons in having their parties and celebrations because of my transgressions. There's still something in this life for me to do; so far, i keep trying to find it and i must be searching on my own design again because i'm just not quite there yet.  There's nothing, other than my coffee and Bible in the morning for getting my ass out of bed these days.  Naw...that's not totally true.  But what i do is between Abba and me.  He knows what my occupati...

 i have felt hatred for men at times because there are so many who shame an entire species of which i'm included and that's not fair to me, not that i'd go for a sex change because that's not what Abba intended for me.  To be a man in the midst of men who are wolves is only intended for my good, and i thank You, Abba.  Your expectations are high for me, as they should be.  Wolves never should be rulers of the world, not even if they were to channel the power of the blowjob.  We all need Your guidance for change, Abba.  Never leave us to figure things out on our own. Only the Lord--and the Lord alone-- shall be exalted today. The lofty looks of man shall be humbled, The haughtiness of men shall be bowed down, And the Lord alone should be exalted in that day.  - [Isaiah 2: 11] Heavenly father, keep us safe from flooding waters per Your covenant of the rainbow in Genesis 9:16, reminding us that You would never flood the world out of existence.  You a...

  The times will be intense.  Everything will be at the maximum...the greatest destructive power in the hands of wicked people, the greatest war of all time threatening to break out, the greatest activity in the forces of the heavens, especially in the evil spirit world.  ---[Arthur E. Bloomfield, How To Recognize the Antichrist ] Like Barnabas tonight, i must remain true to the Lord with all my heart.  i must remain true even when temptations come, and yea they shall.  Like Barnabas, i must take on the role of "encourager."  i must be one who builds up others.  i'm amazed that when more and more folks criticize and throw darts at one person, i must be there to stand beside that one person.  i cannot do this on my own.  It is You, Abba, who stands beside me.  It is You, Holy Spirit who dwells within me.  It is You, my Savior Jesus, who made it all possible when You were raised from the dead. The most sensational and unexpe...